A Time of Change

Our life seems to be in constant change, who's isn't, but this one will be a bit tougher in some ways than others. Our eldest son is going off to college. Not far, just in Williamsport PA, only 4 1/2 hrs. away, but still "away". He is one of those really great kids. As far as raising kids go, I think he's very easy. He's had diabetes since he was 11, very unstable, but he's been self care right from the start, I made him since his father had just left us and I was very ill with my lupus. He has always been my helper with his younger brother Joey. His siblings love him dearly! Even Anah, they are always hanging on him, want him to play with them, spend time with them, just BE with them, even his older sister. He is a very family oriented young man and has no problem showing his love for all of us. He teases me and says that he is my clone, we are so alike in so many ways.

To say I will miss him is an understatement. I know his siblings will too, it will be quite an adjustment for them. I just pray I don't cry like a baby, like I am now, when we drop him off. It's not that I don't want him to grow up, I do, and it's not that I don't want him to go to Penn Tech, I do, it's just I will truly, truly miss the wonderful young man he is. I know he'll be home on vacations and during the summer. We will also see him whenever we go down to our cottage, it is only 45mins. from the college, but it's not the same as him being home all the time. Our 11 yo son, Joey, with ADHD will have an especially hard time and I'm sure will act out for a while, he did when his brother went away to college last year, his brother has been the only constant male in his life (other than my hubby, but he was 4 when Bob and I met). Joey never had to worry about his brother leaving like his father did and how he feared his new dad would, his brother would always be there. Now he too is going. Logically he understands that his brother is going away to college and that is what he needs to do, but children that have gone through a divorce tend to have some kind of abandonment issues. Jonathan will miss him too. PJ plays with and loves on Jonathan a LOT in a day. Anah has just gotten used to her big brother and she likes to tease him and climb all over him. My dh also has enjoyed having an older son, he only had his daughter before we married.

Any way, I just felt like I had to blog about this. It's part of our life and I that's what this blog is all about, our every day life and how God gets us through it. I guess this will just be one more way God gets me on my knees.